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The Blog Monster

It’s late at night, and I can’t sleep. It’s calling out to me, like a distant drum beating. I close my eyes, and I can just barely make out the word from so far away. But the tighter I close my eyes, the more I try to ignore it and roll over and just go to sleep already, the louder and larger that word becomes. Shut up, you! I have to work tomorrow. On a computer. I don’t think I have the eyesight to sustain many more hours staring at a screen.

And yet it will not be ignored. It grows, and grows, louder and larger. At first it kind of sounds like footsteps in the distance.

blogblog. blogblog. blogblog…
I try to shut it out. I have put this part of me away, you see, so that I can focus on having a great job and a great life. And it has been quite the spectacular life since I put away my pens and my laptop…
blogblog. blogblog. blogblog…
Again, the rhythm of it is like my heart beating, but it’s becoming louder and louder as I lie in bed, tossing and turning and trying not to wake my husband or my dogs. Oh great, the neighbor’s motion light comes on again, flooding my bedroom with white light as I try to keep my eyes shut tight in a fruitless effort to get a little shut-eye.
I can see the word in my mind’s eye. It’s in Century Gothic 12 pt font. Then Pacifico. Then Comic Sans, Jokerman, and Papyrus. Finally, 36 pt Oswald. All caps, even.
BLOG

The drum beat/footsteps/heartbeat grows and grows. It becomes a loud, steady sound. BLOG. BLOG.
BLOG. BLOG.
BLOG. BLOG. BLOG.
The word mutates again and becomes a word cloud, but there is only one word, varied by different colors. The words float around and start to spin, then they begin to fly towards my eyes as if trying to fly right out of my head. The pulsating rhythm has become too loud to ignore.
BLOG. BLOG. BLOG.

At this point I sigh at my fruitless attempts to sleep and get up and go into my office and begin writing this. Obviously, there is something inside of me that needs to come out. The beast has awakened, and now I have to decide whether to feed it or kill it.
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